Nurturing Nature for a Living

Some times… a lot of the time, I feel like I’m not doing anything with my life *as she sits and blogs on tumblr…the irony*

but seriously, I feel like I’m full of promise and passion, but I’m so damn lazy that It’s all talk and no action. Granted I do enough to ensure I’m not doing absolutely nothing, I mean I do take advantage of opportunities when they present themselves but that’s about it. What about making opportunities for myself? What about going balls to the wall to get what I desire to be done in the world. 

Part of it stems from being scared of failure and rejection, and the other stems from just being damn lazy. I rather sleep and waste time on the internet than be productive most of the time. Combine those two characteristics together, and you are shit outta luck. 

And yet I have the nerve to get a little jealous of those who aren’t shy or slow to take initiate. *Sigh*  it’s not something you teach, you either have it or you don’t. 

I think I need to be rejuvenated by nature again, remember how pumped I was to do stuff when I came back from Australia? (as if anyone pays attention to my blogs…I’ll pretend people do for the hell of it), Hopkins has got me lazy again.